BFF

Ok so my best friend in the whole world has to be Nicole. We met in eighth grade and have been inseparable ever since! She helps me with EVERYTHING! From making sure I pick the right boys to helping me pick the right outfits. She's the only one I can talk to for hours upon hours and upon hours. And trust me we have talked for HOURS!! Lol But she's so nice, funny, and always is there for me. She great and I could not live my life with out her. She makes me so happy and always brightens my day!! Even though we go to different high schools we still make sure that doesn't stop us. I love my Nicole!

**Miss. Maddie**

Bored!

I'm so so bored! Ha ha so I went on the internet and found some cute love icons!

See told you they were cute! ;) And thanks to the cooking lady for her comment! It was very nice. :)

**Miss. Maddie**

I WANT!!! I WANT!!

Why do we always want what we can't have. We can't have it end if story. Why when we find out that guy has a girlfriend we want him MORE! Or when your mom says no to that cookie. You want it more! But why didn't we want it when we could have it. Now that the option to have it is over, does that mean that now WE NEED IT!! It's just so confusing at times. One minute you want one thing, then three minute you want another. We are never satisfied with what we have. We always want that new phone, Ipod, computer, boy, new clothes. It doesn't matter that you just got a new one you want the new one because it just came out. Shame on us! Shame that some of us can't appreciate what we have. Some people would kill to have as much as we have. We need to stop WANTING and start appreciating.

**Miss. Maddie**

Thanks to all

Thank you to all who left a comment on my last blog. It's been really hard for me the past couple of months. Thanks for all the support and or storeys that you have shared with me. I'm also very sorry about not posting in awhile but it's been kinds crazy. My birthday was the 8th so I had party and such plus we just had home coming!! It was so much fun! My legs hurt so bad the next day! I danced, and danced, and DANCED!! Lol! :) But it's starting to cool off now and I finally got to check my blog. :)

**Miss. Maddie**

Stupid story

It was the time of my life. I was so happy and full of life. All the pieces of my life were falling into place. I had my family, school, and my two best friends Aaron and Zach. My two best friends were the center of my world. Aaron and I, in particular were absolutely inseparable. He and I would tell and do everything together. We were closer to each other then any one else in the world. There wasn’t a day that would go by that we didn’t at least talk once, let alone three or four times. Everything was perfect, and nothing was going to change that.
I had just got back from CIY, church camp, and I could sense that something was different. Aaron was keeping something from me, which was so strange. We told each other everything. So I asked him a few times if there was something wrong, but he shrugged me off each time. So I had no choice but to let it go. Things were never the same.
It was around 11:30 p.m. on a Sunday night when I got a text message. Now this was not uncommon but this particular text turned my world upside down and backwards. Aaron and I had argued a few times that same day, nothing major but I guess it was. Aaron had sent me a text stating that he does not want to be friends anymore. Those words were like acid to my body and mind. A huge, dry, scratchy cotton ball developed in my throat and was unmovable. I could hear my heart beat in my ears, and warm tears flow down my cheeks. It was impossible to breath, like I was hit in the gut by a sumo wrestler. All I could do is stare at that text message and search my mind for any reason why this could be happening. All I could say in return to him is if this was what he really wanted. I loved and respected Aaron enough that if this was what he wanted then so be it. My whole world had crashed. My best friend, my other half, the person I trusted most in this world didn’t want me in his life. Just the thought of those words shattered my heart. As I waited for his reply to my text all I could do is convince myself that it was a joke. It had to be a joke, why would he not want me anymore? Then memories came flooding back to me. All the phone calls, mall days, movies, and notes we had shared together. Until, my memories were interrupted by my phone, I had received a text. I scurried to get to my phone; I couldn’t get to it fast enough. Only to read the word I was dreading, the one word that would tare me apart forever. Yes, that’s all Aaron had sent to me. Yes, the one word I wished and prayed that I wouldn’t receive. I was broken, at that moment no part of me was working. It felt so surreal and bizarre. My best friend in the whole world didn’t want me anymore, for good, forever. Those words were burned into my brain like nothing else mattered in the world.
Each morning I woke up to those words, every time I thought of Aaron those words popped up in my mind. It was horrible, I couldn’t stand it. I was angry, sad, frustrated, confused, there were so many emotions that I couldn’t decide how to feel. Days upon days of this jail like torture. I moved forward, I focused on moving on and getting back to my real life and other friends. It was so terribly hard.
Today I am back to normal or what I guess what you would call normal. I have new friends, and am happy. I do think about Aaron at times, but not to the extent that it used to be. Aaron will always be apart of my life, just not the way that I wish he would be. All I can do is move forward, and focus on finding the right path for my life. That is what I focus on, the right path.

I'm HORRIBLE!

My gosh I have totally neglected my poor blog! I'm so sorry!!!!!
Well nothings really new. But i was thinking about something the other day. Why is it when you make plans then your parents crush them with new plans. "oh mom I want to stay after school for a club meeting." " No honey you have to babysit." ARG!! I'm so so sick of it!! It kills me every time when i don't have plans she doesn't. But when I do apparently I already do according to my mom!!!!!!! I CAN"T STAND IT! How am I supposed to live my life this way???????????

Miss. Maddie