Circle

One tiny circle can change a life.
It can become happiness.
It's simple yet so complicated.
It could mean forever.
It means commitment, which means scary.
That tiny circle is a world of unknown.
New mistakes, new problems.
but,
That tiny circle can make your world.

-Madelynn

Have you ever had to let someone go that you didn't want to give up? I hate that i have to let people go. I hate that i miss them so much and every fiber of my body wants to talk to them but i know that i had to stop. I know that i had to end things. But why does it have to be so hard. Even if it was an un-healthy relationship and it brought out the worst in me. Part of me wants to talk to them so bad. But i cant. I had to end it. For my own good.

-Madelynn Ann-

Ever had to make a choice of doing the wrong thing or the right thing. Even though the right thing would break you plus another. To choose to break their heart or not to. I hate decisions like this. I hate making people upset. I hate having to make the hardest choice i've ever encountered.

Breaking his heart was hard. I hated every minute of it. But i couldn't keep lieing to him.

I hated it, but had to.

Why is it when we make big decisions we just don't want to even move. Or think. Or speak. We just want to sit and be.

*Heartbreaker*
I sit here in silence.
Praying to god this will be over soon
Slowly releaseing the painful words that would stab him
Try to control my breathing
Holding back the tears that are about to come flowing
Feeling my heart ache as those words sink in for him
Hearing the tears come from his voice
Hearing him try not to scream
I feel weak and hurtful
Wishing i had kept my mouth shut
It had to be done
but i wish it didn't
My hand starts shaking
A tear escapes from my eye
Then the tears start flowing
Running down my face faster then i can breath
Tasting the salty saddness when i gasp for air
i can feel his heart break as we sit in silence
No one speaks
My chest becomes hard and stiff
I hold my breath praying he'll say something
"goodnight, i'll talk to you soon"
That's all i get
That's all i deserve
I sit in complete silence
crying and full of pain
I never wanted to be a heartbreaker

-Madelynn Ann-